IVP....

well, always wanted to end my bball career (but not so much of a career to begin with) by playing for school for the last time. but after reading this, u people will know that i got cut yesterday. usually, u see usually, i will go home, sit down, or in the bath room, or in my car, and i will just think. think about what went wrong, what happen, what this what that, how can i play better, whats my mistakes, is it my mistake or someone else's and blah blah blah. BUT yesterday, yesterday it was cool. everything was just cool. of course it sting alittle (the rejection feeling), but nothing that i cant handle. the main point is, it didnt hurt that bad. quoting from hattori hanzo from kill bill "i can tell u with no ego", that i am better than those who got in. maybe not all, maybe not more than half, but definitely i can get in if not for some factors in which the coach told me. some factors like i've miss all the previous trainings and only coming for the try out, i'm like year 3 engin already and he feels that he rather give the slot to a year 1 so that they can play for NUS longer, and he knows that through his experience, engin students only play for one year and then will concentrate in their studies in year four. from my point of view, they are all fucking crap except for reason number one. i did miss all trainings before that. reason number 2, crappy bull shit lah, they cant play shit man, pinning hope on them is a gamble. bball is not something that u can teach. i've been playing sch team since sec sch. all the tactics and shit is cannot be taught one. this tactic, that tactic. when the game begin, there is only the experience that counts. u cant teach a player to run here and run there and this and that. bball is a living thing, its not dead. only thing is to keep playing, and if u lose, most imptly is to learn from ur mistakes so that u dont make it again. feed on the losing feeling and transform it into something positive.

on the whole, like i said, i'm not sad or anything, cause i know i'm good. period. this is not jealousy, its confidence with no self doubt.